Insanity

So lately I've been really frustrated, pissed off, annoyed, Everything. I used to be a happy go lucky kinda gal and was smiling all the time, and having a good time, just all the time. Now, not so much. I don't know what's been getting me SOO down lately, but I don't like it. I want the old Chelsey back and I'm not sure how to find her. I feel like I need to get away from everything and anything and just do some soul searching. I'm getting irritated easily lately and I feel bad for Devin who is having to put up with me. )-: I know that part of the problem is that I want a baby so badly, and it just isn't happening for us. Everyone keeps saying, "it will happen soon", but it never feels like it's soon enough. I feel like I'm behind the time and my times a tickin. I want to add a baby to our little family and start the adventure of Parenthood with Devin. We have Everything we need for a baby and everything we could ever dream of having. The only thing we really need to buy would be more diapers. Between a lady that I babysit for and our friend Ben & Christina, we have everything we need, except a baby. Please Lord bless us with a baby...... (-:

On a side note, I started working out about a month ago on the Jillians Michael weight loss program. It's a combination of eating a certain amount of calories and doing circuit training. I have only lost about 2 pounds, but I've lost some inches off my waist and my hips which is nice. I'm mad because I didn't take measurments when I first started, I only took them a week ago so I don't know how I first started. Dang, oh well. I thought working out was supposed to let out happy endorphins and all would be well, but nope! I am sleeping better in the night though and I go to bed very tired.

I sold one of my guns the other day and replaced it with a smaller one that I could wear instead of having it in my purse. I feel bad when I take my purse places and there's kids in the house. Who knows if one of them might go in there when I'm not looking and take it out and play with it. It's a safer bit to not have a gun in my purse all around. This is what I got! This isn't the exact one that I got, but this is for reference on how small it is! I think it would do the job if I ever got into a precarious situation.

I got to go on a ride along with my friend Ben on Saturday night. He is a Sheriff Deputy with the King County Transit Police. We went out and along all the bus routes in Seattle areas. We got to wake up Bums or people that were sleeping in the bus stop, Stop people from smoking and drinking in them as well. He handed me a list of things that are illegal to do when you are at a bus stop and I couldn't beleive how many items were on that list. We also drove around scanning license plates all night looking for something that wasn't "Clear". We found one lady that had a suspended license from Bremerton, but we didn't arrest her, we let her go with a warning. We also found a kid that was 17 and was smoking and drinking in the bus shelter. He also had a suspension from riding the bus for a year from a robbery on a bus. Ben handcuffed him, took all his posessions and placed him in the back of the car. I then listened to his sob story about nothing in life was his fault and he began to cry. I stared forward because I didn't really want to talk to him. Ben called his mom and let her know what was going on, and then we released him to walk home. We didn't get to arrest anyone and take them to jail, BUT I got all on questions answered and feel slightly better about Devin possibly going into law enforcement. I had a great time, and it was a such a fun experience to be able to see what he does on a daily basis, and to get to know my friend just a little better as well. I am truly grateful for him and him being able to put his life on the line everyday when he goes to work. I think that Police Officers are underestimated for the jobs that they do everyday. It takes a wonderful person to be able to do so, and an even stronger spouse/family to be ok with letting them go everyday.

Devin spent all nights last week going to hunting class. He left work at 4pm and drove straight to sultan about an hour and 40minutes away. He was then at class till 9pm and drove home. He got home nightly at 10:15pm. )-: It was hard without him there for most the week, but we did it and he ended up passing the class with a 100%. I'm so proud of him for working so hard and getting his license. He is now going deer hunting this weekend with Ben (which is the last deer hunting weekend here) and then he gets to hunt duck till January. I am excited and hopefull that he will be able to bring home a deer and to come home safe!

Well that's a little update over the last month!

So I've realized it's been a while since I've blogged, it was getting to the point where it felt like no one actually is reading these things so I didn't care. Alot has happend since August. We celebrated our 2 years wedding anniversary on September 29th. We went on a hot air Balloon ride to celebrate. It was amazing, and totally worth the time and Money spent. We started meeting at a Winery in Woodinville where we met the 2 vans and all the poeple. We then got into the vans and drove to a location in Maltby. We all got out and they filled a balloon with helium to watch it go up so they can see which way the winds were going. when they decided that it went too far West we drove over East more and found a spot by a church in a huge open field.
(This was the end of our ride after we landed)

This is us at the Winery waiting for the Vans to come.

These are the 2 vans parking at the Winery. Everything they need was on that traiolr.

This is our "pilot" at the fields when they started taking in all off the trailor to set it up.

And I was SOOO excited!!!

They hooked the balloon up to the basket and put fans on each side to inflate it a little so they could get all the twine and ropes un crossed.

Looking inside was Awesome looking!

This is the top where they had to secure all the strands.

And my cutie hubby posing as they started to raise the balloon up.

To catch a moment in time together!

This is when we took off. It was really cool how they did it. They hooked a long rope to the front of the van, and connected it to the bottom on the basket. They then made the fire with the propane as it started to lift up. When we were lifting up enough off the ground, they then unhooked us and away we went!

This was our trail balloon. It was REALLY cool being able to see them lift up after us, and it was fun watching them behind us since you can't see yourself.

This is the veiw looking up the middle of the balloon. It was such a pretty day and it was about 65 out, but with this flame, it kept me nice and toasty in my tank top.

This is a lake that used to be open to hunters coming out to duck hunt. Since they closed that down, it is now a private lake that people live on. The Pilots do touch and go's on this lake when the wind is just right. We didn't quite get all the way down to the lake, but we got pretty close.

This is a veiw from the balloon over looking to Seattle. If you look close enough you can see the space needle and keep in mind, we were in Woodinville. That's such a beautiful view.

This is our follow balloon, you can see how close they came to the lake. It was amazing.

Oh my hubby. He was SOO nervous to do this, and by his kind graces he knew I wanted to so bad, he sacrificed him being scared to take me. However, once we got off the ground about 100feet, he was no longer scared! What a trooped, I love him!

And us! Yeah!

Our pilot talking away! At one point he offered us an in flight cocktail, which turned out to be a bottle of water. It was a tiny bottle too. The only thing he asked we that we keep the bottle inside the basket. Hmmm, I wonder why?

This is a view of a Winery that we flew over, and a veiw also looking straight down! It was magical!

This was the other balloon landing in the field after us. It was so cool watching it come down over the power lines and everything. It was an amazing trip and we will always remember it! hmmm, I love you hubby. <3>

Cat Naps

We have been go go go the last few days. We are now down to 4 kittens in the house and 2 of them are going to the neighbors this upcoming Monday. Which mean we will have the 2 left that we are keeping. Dolc'e and Gabbana. Dolc'e is a girl and Gabbana is a boy. They look identical only Dolc'es face is a little wider. Devin was so tired the other day he decided to take a nap with his little dolc'e. Here is a picture of Gabbana, I've just now realized that I haven't really taken any of him and I'm a little sad about that.

This is the last group shot that I got of all 7 before they started leaving us. If you look at it, Dolc'e and Gabbana are the only ones that are looking AT me, the other ones could care less. It has been a fun ride with them, but MyLee(the mamma) has been the most overprotected animal I have ever seen. She has gotten in countless fights with our other fluffy cat Myzzie over nothing. Myzzie will come into the house from the cat door and MyLee will start attacking her. I'm pretty sick of it. I would have loved to have the kitties around for a long time but it's better that they are going so the house can get back to normal.

These are our babies now, since everyone that I was pregnant with are now starting to deliver, it's nice to be able to have some babies in the house to try to get my mind off of it. SIGH.

A new Best Friend

So 4 weeks ago out cat Mylee had 7 kittens, and over the last 4 weeks it has been really fun and hard having them around. I have been trying to handle them as much as possible to get them used to people and trying to get them used to dogs as well. We have successfully made best friends with Maui and her and it just happens to be the one that we are keeping.Her name is Dolc'e and she is the sweetest kitten. Every time I come home from work and she hears my voice she instantly wakes up and is meowing for me to pet her. She is also the first in her litter to use the litter box and to have the first poop in there too. She is such a cuddle bunny and oh so friendly.

ALL of our kitties are starting to get friendly and sweet. They all wake up and start meowing for attention. when you pet them, they stop meowing. It's so very sweet. I need to take some pictures of all of them so everyone can see them. We have about 4 who have homes, and need to find the other 3 good homes. they are very loveable people, so if you are looking for one, they are free!!!!

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Baby Kitties Have Arrived

So last Sunday Mylee (our 1 and a half year kittie) had her babies. We unfortunatly had to leave her RIGHT before she started. She was pacing around the room going in and out of her box and meowing. She would also growel everytime she had a contraction. When we got home 5 hours later we checked on her and she had delivered what appeared to be 6 babies. (I was hoping for 4 just so they would be easier to get rid of, but lately god has has WAY different plans then what Devin and I have). I started petting Mylee and she got up to come see me. SURPRISE, there was one hiding. She had SEVEN, SEVEN baby kitties. Holly cow, what were we going to do now. Ugh. So we showed the neighbors (they already planned on taking one, but they are now taking 2) and we are keeping one, so that's 3 down and 4 more to go now. We ended up with 1 Grey striped (which the neighbor is taking) 2 PURE black (not a mark on them) 3 brown/black/grey tiger stripe (neighbor is taking one of those and we are keeping one) and 1 Tortie (like her mamma).

I touched them alot that night and Mylee got pretty ticked at me and refused to feed them. It was a battle with her for the next 6 hours trying to keep her in that room with them. We would close the door and she would claw at it for a while, and meow, and she even pushed the screen off the window and ecaped onto the back deck. We kept her in there overnight and during the day while we were at work. Eventually, she got back into the swing of things, and she now spends almost all her time with them. In one week I can't believe how much they have grown. They are already getting so cute and so soft. I check on them everyday to make sure they are all still breathing and still with us. She hasn't shown any signs in wanting to move them at all and I'm so happy about that.

Here are just a few photos of them, since when I pick them up they cry and Mylee doesn't like that.

This Tiger is personally my favorite!

This is the only Grey one.

Mamma and all 7 babies.

Doing OK

(This is Tatum's Urn. We keep it on the fire place mantel with my dad's urn)
So, we are doing ok. Father's day was a little hard (especially because we lost Tatum a few weeks ago and my dad passed this last October), but we started doing some projects around the house and just worked together. We made it through the day together!!!

My milk I think has finally cleared up and is gone, and I have started missing my old boobs, and old body. I have lost half my baby weight, and I still have 4lbs to go. We are walking everyday with the dog (and I'm talking LONG walks, either 1 mile, or 1 hour) and I started back on weight watchers again. I hate the feeling when you start because you feel hungry ALL the time, and boy do I feel hungry. It makes me want to eat much much more then I did while I was even pregnant, that and since I know i'm not supposed to have cookies, it makes me want them more. But i'm hanging in there and not giving in, at least not every night. I want to get back down to my pre-baby weight. I can fit back into my normal jeans (some of them are a little tight, but I can button them and wear them all day). Physically I'm feeling great, just emotionally once in a while I'll get a little sadness. We went down to a street Fair in Puyallup this last weekend and there were pregnant ladies everywhere, and that made me sad. I know that we will get another chance again, but it's sad for the one that you lost. I love the fact that we got to see her and hold her, and we have a few pictures from the photographers (Now I lay Me Down To Sleep) and I love those even more. It helps the healing process for me to have these beautiful photos of Tatum for us to keep. I printed out one of them so far and it's in a frame in her room. It's precious and beautiful! I feel so lucky to have that!

July 7th is our check up appt. At that appt we should be getting back my blood results and the placenta results. We are hoping that it all can give us some insight to what happend, but most of all if we are ok to reproduce and try again with out the fear that the placenta will fail again (we are pretty sure it was the placenta). We would like some good news after all the bad news. If we can figure out the finacials again I think we will end up trying again in 3 some months.

Devin has a test today for a new career path (I'm not allowed to say what it is yet). I know that he will pass this test, and when he does he will probably start this new direction within 4 months. At that point he will be a lot happier with his job and hopefully be ok with me getting the new career that I want (stay at home mommy).

That's about it for what's been happening with us. We are just hanging in there and loving on eachother more and more. Life is still turning around and we are turning with it, we are just trying to get back to a normal life, with the normal every day happenings! Don't be afraid to talk to us, we really are doing OK!